um . . . this shit been on my mind for a long time now .
i dnt think cud eva tell yu .
but i kno i'll have to one day .
its not yu its me ! no really its me .
i really love nd care about yu w/ all my heart .
nd as much as i love the thot of been n love .
w/ a man tht is great nside nd out, dmn near perfect,
nd cares about me no matter how bitchy i am . im NOT !
i want to so much ! but im not .
the thing is, im yung nd havent found myself .
nd yu expect me to give myself to yu .
there is so many thngs i wanna do nd places i wanna go n life !
nd i dnt wanna live n Oakland .
im not ah oakland grrl .
i will neva adapt to this place .
ima la chick at heart nd soul .
nd n two yrs i plan to b a NYC lady .
my intentions are not to hurt yu .
but i am to self centered to give up my dreams fa yu !
