true feelings

ANXIETY !!!
only time i get this feeling
is wen im stuck n the house
for way too long
i get to thinking abt ish
ish tht shuldnt even matter

MONEY !!!
money is the only thing
tht cn make me depressd
if i dnt have money
i cnt shop
if i cnt shop
im not happy
so i guess n my case
money cn bring me
Happiness !

IRRITATION !!!
cnt even b around yu
for 5 seconds b4
i get irritated
idk wat it is but
i cnt c myself w/ yu

FAKE !!!
im tired of faking
like i really lik yu
wen r yu gon realize
tht this not gon wrk?
srry for my infidelity !!

karaoke with jaz!!!

one bored night turned into karaoke night !!! jaz gets it poppin . i kno she is gonna kill me ! but o well !!!!

Yu Make Me Sick !!!

yu let me treat yu like shit
nd then yu expect me to respect yu
yu steady actin lik a bitch
nd yu still want me to respect yu
yu naggin me lik a female
nigga i got more balls than yu

dnt get me wrng
im lovin errthng yu do for me
all im askin is tht yu gimme 50ft !!
let me breath nd do my thng
yu tryna b on my hip
i got enough weight dwn there

all im tryna say is
GET OUT MY WAY BITCH !!!!!
but dnt forget abt my burfday !! :)

Sexy Songz Yuuup !!!

ok so the other night i had the best dream ever !! i was having a burfday party . nd trey came nd pikd me up . while we were in the car i was so shockd nd i cudnt believe it was him . so i poked him to c if it was real . he turnd nd lookd at me . gave me a beautiful smile nd grabd my hand . nd strtd singin to me . i so need this to cum tru !! holla at me trey !!!

i wanna feel lik this again !

"i L0V3 Y0U B CuHz :

oF Y0U .
i LiK wHo Y0U R .
ThE WAi YoU L0V3 . ToUcH . KiSS . Nd sMeLL .
ThE aTTeNTi0N Y0U GiVe mE .
Y0U sP0iL mE Nd Y0U DnT EvEn KnO`
ThE WAi YoU AcT LiK Y0U DnT CaRe .
Y0U CooK Fa mE .
Y0U`Re aH aSSwHoLe . LoL .
EvEn WeN Y0U AcT LiK Y0U DnT CaRe i CaN C ThE L0V3 Y0U HaVe N ThE iNSiDE .
Y0U WooD d0 aNi THiNg Fa mE .
Y0U NeVa JuS LeT mE WiN .
Y0U TaKe mE aS i aM . [ FLaWs N aLL ] .
N0 MaTTeR HoW MaNi TiMeS wE GeT MaD aT EaCH oTHeR YoU NeVa TuRNeD Y0 BaCC 0N mE .

Y0U L0V3 mE ."

even though things were not the best .

i was still happy !

i hate wat tht man has installed in me. showd me how to b a real asshole. treat em lik shit b4 they do it to yu. he gave me this impression tht all men r lik him . disrespectful, scandalous, nd jus useless ! as much as i want to trust a guy . give him my heart nd never once . doubt tht he wnt break it. or make me cry . i cnt . i keep cumin across these great guys. who r dmn there willing to give me the wrld ! but i wnt let them . i jus wish i cud cum across tht guy tht will change my mind .

sexually frustrated!

i need sum bomb ass ciggz .
nd theres one person i kno fa sho tht cn make tht happen
but he is lik 5hrs away nd one thts local tht i think cn handle this .
i jus got out of ah relationship nd dnt really wanna jump into havin sex w/ sumone else .
dmn wat am i 2 do ????
its lik tht jamie fox song its on my mind no matter where im at r who im w/ .
i was jus n the car w/ my pops nd i strtd thinkn bout it .
eewww rite ??? thnk god daddys cnt read minds .
but ne who ! i wanna go bak 2 the 06 07 freak i use 2 b . lmao .
sex errday 2 r 3 time ah day . who cn handle all tht ???
i need ah real pussy pleaser . not ah fukn teaser . tht lick but dnt eat it !
i need sum long lastin ciggz . tht dnt give yu diseases lik cancer .
im not tryna die fa this shit . lol .
dmn mayb i shuld jus go buy toys instead . but shit dick is free .
nd nothins better than the real deal .
ugh . . . i shall sum up w/ a conclusion .
to b continued . . .

self centered !

um . . . this shit been on my mind for a long time now .
i dnt think cud eva tell yu .
but i kno i'll have to one day .
its not yu its me ! no really its me .
i really love nd care about yu w/ all my heart .
nd as much as i love the thot of been n love .
w/ a man tht is great nside nd out, dmn near perfect,
nd cares about me no matter how bitchy i am . im NOT !
i want to so much ! but im not .
the thing is, im yung nd havent found myself .
nd yu expect me to give myself to yu .
there is so many thngs i wanna do nd places i wanna go n life !
nd i dnt wanna live n Oakland .
im not ah oakland grrl .
i will neva adapt to this place .
ima la chick at heart nd soul .
nd n two yrs i plan to b a NYC lady .
my intentions are not to hurt yu .
but i am to self centered to give up my dreams fa yu !